|Me some amount of time ago|
before all 'this'.
A couple of years ago I decided to make it my aim that everywhere I go, each relationship I have, any connection I make, every moment I’m around would be better, simply because I’m there. (It’s the ‘ambition to change the world, one moment at a time’ at the top right up there!)
I don’t mean it egotistically – I don’t think, Right, I’m here, so everything’s obviously great now! I just mean I want to be a breath of fresh air, to help people, or give them something to smile about. Whether it’s a witticism, or a song I might play, or buying them a drink, or giving them a hug...or just being around when they need someone. Sometimes it’s just about being available.
There’s a song I really like at the moment which contains the line: ‘I like to be the light that’s missing and remind you every minute of the future isn’t written...not yet’ – I love that line, and I shared this song with someone today, quoting it in particular.
They replied: ‘Those words stood out to me – sounds like something you would write.’
I don’t think they realise how much of a compliment that was to me. Not because they think I could write as well as Mr Mraz (if only!), but because for them to believe I might have written it means they recognise the quality in me – of trying to ‘be the light that’s missing’ in people’s lives. I felt I must be succeeding in my aim.
Here's the song:
Often it’s a challenge – I don’t always feel like being the light; some days I feel like curling up in a corner crying! And on those days, I occasionally wonder who is there for me. But I try not to think like that too much, because it’s outside of what I’m aiming to do. And besides, I do have some great friends who often have to listen to me going on about whatever is troubling me!
The point is, I decided I wanted to be like this, and so started acting like it. At first it didn’t come naturally, but I think that’s true of many things we do in life. And now, according to one person at least, it seems it has become ‘me’, and I am delighted about that.
If we want to be something, whether it’s an optimist, more outgoing, more confident, a better listener ... whatever, then the best thing to do is to start acting like it. Eventually, with practice that thing starts to become who we really are. And it's worth it.
So, how do we be who we want to be? We just ... be it.